Archive for August, 2010

Not What They Intended

Wednesday, August 25th, 2010

I was walking through a parking lot in a nearby small town when a woman coming out the door of the Dollar Store met my eye, reached in her pocket, and handed me a flyer, saying “you should read this.” ‘Scuse me? You don’t know from Mother Eve – what is this thing and why are you handing it to me? When I glanced down, it was a classic, standard model Mark I tract. My spirituality isn’t likely to pull up roots at this point in my life, but I confess that I was curious. I glanced through it.

It starts with a middle aged man being loaded into an ambulance and asking for a priest. Next we see him with the classic sheet over his face, as a weeping young woman asks the priest if he managed to make his confession. The priest assures her that he confessed, was forgiven and received Last Rites, and that his soul was safely on his way to heaven. I noticed in passing that the words put into the priest’s mouth were “I forgave him” not “G-d forgave him”, but what do I know? I’m no Catholic. I’m also fairly certain that the clergyman isn’t the one personally doing the forgiving, which puts me ahead of the folks who wrote this little gem. But whatever. I forged on.

Next they show Our Hero at the proverbial Gates, with an indistinct but imposing figure pointing down. The next frame, clearly meant to be at the same time, is of the priest describing this man’s life, and assuring his flock that Our Hero was already enjoying Heaven’s Bliss, for he had been not only a been an observant Catholic, but a loyal son of Mother Church, known for charity and good works, building homes for the poor with his own funds, giving clothing to any poor child he saw, never throwing away leftovers from the restaurant he owned because “everyone knew” that if they came at the end of the day, he’d give anyone a package of leftovers sufficient for a family with no questions asked. They laid it on with a trowel; this guy was a Good Person.

“But I did everything right! Why am I condemned to the Lake of Fire?” cries Our Hero. And so he is brought for an audience with Jesus – another indistinct but imposing figure. (Why not G-d, I wondered? But again, what do I know? Not Christian in any form, much less this one, and never will be.) And in great detail, this figure tells the man that all that matters is that he never “accepted [Jesus] as his personal Lord and Savior in life, that everything he was taught by the Church was a lie, and that not only he but everyone who became Catholic because of his example would burn eternally, THE END.

I threw it away, of course, but I found myself thinking about the people who hand those things out and believe their message. How sad, to believe that your $DEITY is so cruel and petty. Good intentions count for nothing. Concern for those less fortunate counts for nothing. Charity, honorable behavior, ethics, morals, honest faith – all of those things count for nothing. The road to their divinity is a one-way street, accessible only through their particular gate-keeper. They have made G-d as finite and narrow-minded as they themselves are – making G-d in their image, rather than making themselves in G-d’s image.

I’ve seen these things before, and they’ve always left me disgusted. So did this one; no one has a right to determine the validity of another’s belief. But it left me with another response as well – pure pity. I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the reaction they were hoping for.

The Garden Overfloweth

Tuesday, August 24th, 2010

I really don’t have that big a garden. Four feet by four feet, containing two cucumber vines, four tomatoes, a couple of potatoes, thyme, basil and a collection of marigolds and moss roses. I can weed it in ten minutes, and water it with the hose – no sprinkler needed, it just doesn’t take that long.

But small as it is, I have an abundance of those cucumbers and tomatoes. My basil is bushy enough that I could (and probably will) make several good batches of basil. My harvesting basket is full, and so is the mixing bowl, usually used for bread, that I poured the excess into. It’s colorful, too, since half my cherry tomatoes are pear shaped red ones and the other half pear shaped yellow, and both are incredibly prolific. I’ll probably take a quart over to my girlfriend, since she didn’t get a garden in this year and they won’t keep until I next go in to Indy. (Don’t worry, Mom. I’ll have more by then.) Judging by the number of green tomatoes and blossoms, they aren’t slowing down any time soon either.

My son wants to try to make homemade ketchup, and I may attempt it. These are salad and slicing tomatoes, not sauce tomatoes, so I don’t know how it will go. On the other hand, I might as well try it. It’s not like I don’t have the tomatoes to spare.

A Different View

Saturday, August 21st, 2010

A good friend, the mother of friends of my son’s, is going through a divorce. It’s badly needed; domestic violence has been an escalating issue. And, being both Listener par excellence and legally trained, I’m squarely in the middle of it in a way I’ve never before been. It’s not that I haven’t seen such divorces professionally, but this time I’m seeing the details, listening as she tries to figure out how to reorganize and simplify her life, as she tries to figure out what really is important and what’s just a petty detail that won’t matter in the long run. I’m seeing first hand, not just hearing, about how this is affecting her children, because as she’s talking to me quietly in her kitchen, my son is playing with hers in their living room. I’m seeing the increased volatility of the child with Aspberger’s, and the closed withdrawn watchfulness of her neurotypical son. No matter how many presentations I’ve heard, no matter how much I’ve read, nothing has had the visceral impact of seeing the changes in people I’ve known for nearly five years.

In talking to her attorney, I realized how long I’ve seen this coming. She started telling me how her husband – a long-distance trucker – would try to tell her that she had no need to go out, no reason to be anywhere but at home waiting for him when he happened to blow through or call, that her only business should be taking care of the house and kids, and that her friends were a stupid distraction. I discussed it with my own wonderful husband, and we gave her a key so that she would have a place to go if she needed it regardless of whether or not we were home. That was almost 4 years ago. She didn’t think anything of it other than that he was being a jerk. I saw the beginnings of a pattern, and hoped profoundly that I was wrong.

Unfortunately I wasn’t, and now I understand how it creeps up on people. It’s gradual, that attempt by one partner to control the other, and always presented as being triggered by the perceived misbehavior of the abused spouse. It might even sound reasonable at first. But “I’m afraid other men will find you attractive” becomes “you’re having an affair”, with the “proof” being that there are men’s phone numbers in the personal Rolodex. Yeah, there are. The fathers of your kids’ friends. Or their Little League coaches. Or the furnace repairman, or the roofing contractor you liked after your roof took storm damage. And the accusations turn into fights, then shoving, then kicks and slaps and threats to bring a gun and shoot you. It wasn’t until she got knocked down in the kitchen that she realized where it was going. I’d seen it coming for a year and a half by then.

Even in the abstract, this has always made me angry, but now I’m seeing the terror this man is causing, and it makes me sick. My friend is one of the strongest women I know, and I’ve seen her shaking, in tears, so frightened she couldn’t figure out a course of action, certain that her husband would find her no matter where in this vast continent she fled, as if he were omnipotent and had all of James Bond’s gadgetry to boot. I’ve been the friend she confided in, and am now the one she asks if something she’s considering is reasonable, or if she should do something now or wait. She can’t handle more than one day at a time. Keeping track of the long view is my job, for the moment. I will be with her in court when she goes to get the restraining order made permanent next week, probably as her primary witness, certainly as her moral support and spine. I’m not her attorney, thank heaven; I’m her friend. I’m finding that’s a whole different job.

Spoofing Mr. Bond

Thursday, August 5th, 2010

Joseph and I went to see Cats and Dogs: The Revenge of Kitty Galore today. I expected a kid’s movie, and indeed that’s what it was. It was also the sort of delightful show that appeals to kids on one level and adults on another level entirely.

Remember Dr. No? The Spy Who Loved Me? Goldfinger? Jaws? Pussy Galore? The satellite that would Destroy the World? The bald villain (can’t recall his name) stroking his white cat? Toss in a pinch of Batman and a couple of other movies. Now mash them together with dogs and cats as the spies/ protagonists and villains, with parallel spy agencies (the feline agency is called MEOWS), moving through the human world trying not to be noticed, and you’ll begin to get an idea of the movie.

The reviews I’ve read have pretty universally panned it – weak plot, gratuitous swooping about, trite, lacking any message, etc. Okay, I agree; all that’s true. And it’s all beside the point. Those folks are taking it way too seriously, certainly far more seriously than it takes itself. It intends to be campy and silly and playful. It intends to make its audience laugh, and it succeeds. Basically, it’s amusing fluff because that’s what it was written to be.

So my boy and I laughed all the way through, though usually at different things. He kept asking me why I was laughing, but I really couldn’t explain. We both walked out glad we’d gone to see it, rather than feeling like it was time or money we’d never get back. It was nothing but pure escapist entertainment, and y’know what? Sometimes that’s exactly what I want.